fail-ure [feyl-yer]
noun.
an act or instance of failing or proving unsuccessful
Failure is always hard to accept for most. Those who just
brush it off are one of the lucky ones. Sadly, I’m not one of them. I always
question people’s decisions if I don’t like them. I don’t always speak up about
it, I just keep it in my head.
Recently I joined a summer workshop called Repertory. Basically,
it’s all about theater, preforming and meeting new people. By the end of each
summer, we have to put all that we’ve learned in a show. I swore to my family
and myself that I would land a role, at least a small role. Every chance we got
to show off our talent, I worked hard and did my best. When auditions came, the worst happened; I
got sick. The cold that I’ve been fighting for weeks finally came around ten
times worse than it started out to be, it might as well have been the flu. I
figured that if my auditions didn’t work out right, all those weeks of hard
work would pay off. I was distraught when I found out I didn’t land a role, not
even the smallest one.
I moped around for a day drowning in self-pity. I probably
formed a ton of frown lines, thanks to my heavy thinking. For hours I would
wonder what I did wrong. Until finally, I realized that stressing on the fact
that I didn’t get a role wasn’t worth it. What’s done is done. I just had to accept
it. Accepting failure is never easy, but sometimes you just have to let it
go and be happy with what you’ve already accomplished. It will also make you
feel better about yourself. You never know, maybe it wasn’t what God wanted for
you, or maybe He felt that you didn’t deserve it. But what you should never do
is question Him. You may feel like He’s cursing you, or that He does things on
purpose to torture you. Well, He isn’t. God is doing what he feels is right for
you and what He believes you should experience. Sometimes I doubt and think
that I’m alone and that I’m cursed to fail in life. But I’m never alone, and I
know that now. God and my family will always be there for me, no matter
what happens.
1 comment:
Don't feel too bad about this. We all go through a series of failures in our whole life. Honestly, I do know the feeling is like. I often battle with failures of all sorts. And to miss the chance of a lifetime to perform can be quite a pain. But truly God is always there for us no matter what. He has the best plan for you, so keep trusting in Him.
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